Out of Office (Permanently)

Posted by melissaicd on March 30, 2026
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Consider this site officially accessioned.

As an academic librarian and PhD student, I know the value of a good archive. It’s where we store the foundational data that informs the present. This blog represents a specific epoch of my life and research, and while I’m no longer adding new entries here, I’ve kept the stacks open for anyone who finds these previous reflections useful.

My current processing and “field notes” have moved to two new homes to better reflect the two halves of my current focus:

  • MiscEtCetera3.com: For my threshold texts on institutional epistemology, the CSU system, and navigating the complexities of the workplace.
  • Kalimdor.wordpress.com: For my life in Azeroth, Hunter strategies, and gaming culture.

Status: Static Archive

Last Updated: March 30, 2026

Current Series: Please follow the links above for active updates.

ALA’s releases on collaboration with the incoming Trump administration

Posted by melissaicd on November 22, 2016
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Here’s the letter I wrote to ALA’s Executive Board and Administration, sent Monday, November 21, 2016:

Dear members of ALA Leadership and Administration,
I write to you with great disappointment, anger, and a deep sense of shame. After reading the press releases “ALA offers expertise, resources to incoming administration and Congress” and “Libraries bolster opportunity — new briefs show how libraries support policy priorities of new Administration,” I am struck by the insensitivity and callous opportunism expressed by ALA, the professional association for which I have worked very hard and had proudly assumed leadership roles and an elected position.
I have long labored on behalf of ALA’s efforts in equity, diversity, and inclusion, thinking that the work I do is worth my time, effort, attention, and passion. Moreover, I was under the impression that such work was wanted and cherished. I had also known that ALA as an organization has had problems centering diversity, equity, and inclusion, especially the needs of its most marginalized members. I believed that ALA wanted to change its organizational culture to be more welcoming and inclusive. However, the press releases I had mentioned sent a strong message to those of us who have immense reasons to fear and resist the incoming U. S. administration–that ALA prizes colluding with our oppressors more than acting on behalf of the core professional values it states it has. The collaboration proposed by the ALA press releases normalizes the intolerance and bigotry fomented by the U.S. President-elect. I think the dissonance is self-evident.
As a Councilor-at-Large and an advocate for intersectional equity, diversity, and inclusion in professional library circles, I voice my strong dissent and vehement disagreement to the trajectory ALA leadership and the ALA Washington Office is taking us, its dues-paying members and volunteers. Though ALA President Todaro apologized and acknowledged the concerns and protests voiced by many of ALA’s members, the damage has been done. The potential public good outlined by the three briefs from ALA OITP is overwhelmingly eclipsed by the message of complicity. The voices of ALA members, through individual expressions, ALA division structures, or through ALA Council governance, have been supplanted by the ALA Washington Office. Though this morning’s message from President Todaro and the ALA Executive Board is reassuring, the sense of betrayal I feel still remains. As do my feelings of anxiety and fear as a woman of color, an immigrant, and a person with a chronic illness and an invisible disability. I find this entire situation to be extremely unfortunate and deplorable. ALA is no longer the haven it once was for me.
In my expression of grave disappointment and fervent disapproval, I also make a strong commitment to resist capitulation and to continue to emphatically uphold the values of equity, social responsibility and social justice, diversity, and inclusion by word and deed. I join my fellow ALA members in expressing staunch objection to positions that normalize the further marginalization and systemic oppression of many.
Sincerely,
Melissa I. Cardenas-Dow
ALA Member, 2004-Present
Co-chair, ALA Equity, Diversity & Inclusion Implementation Working Group, 2016-2019
ALA Councilor-at-Large, 2016-2019

 

Source: ALA’s releases on collaboration with the incoming Trump administration

Why Radical Academics Often Find it Hard to Write, and What to Do about It

Posted by melissaicd on May 2, 2016
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Why Radical Academics Often Find it Hard to Write, and What to Do about It

Sometimes, Intersectionality Means You STFU

Posted by melissaicd on March 15, 2016
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UIUC GSLIS Students in Solidarity with AIS

Posted by melissaicd on September 13, 2014
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Image of an orange capital letter I on its side. With the caption We are grateful to the many LIS professionals who have engaged with the University to discuss the reinstatement of Professor Salaita and to reiterate the principles of our profession to Chancellor Wise and others in the University’s administration. This gratitude extends to the many who feel the chilling effects of the University Board’s decision: professors, adjuncts, staff, students, and others who have signed petitions or taken other actions to protect the values of academic freedom at UIUC. Their actions shine light on the path we hope to take together, the path to maintaining a community environment that does not easily fall silent, succumb to uninformed opinions, and rush to reactionary decisions. We hope that other LIS professionals–students, professors, librarians, and more–will join us on the path toward resisting censorship and collusion by signing this open letter.

via UIUC GSLIS Students in Solidarity with AIS.

My fellow students and I publicly express our grief, disappointment, outrage, gratitude, empathy, and resolve. Most importantly, we show the strength of our commitment to intellectual freedom. We honor the communities of which we are part and the members who have raised their voices already. We write as ourselves, as individuals, as whole people. We do not claim to represent any established University institution, organization, or entity. Please share our open letter widely and join us.

The Good Enough Professor: Not Too Refined to Say This, Anyway.

Posted by melissaicd on September 12, 2014
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The Good Enough Professor: Not Too Refined to Say This, Anyway.

“Incivility” is necessary for some voices to be heard, for the stakes of any particular debate to be apparent, for conversations to result in meaningful change. A colleague supportive of Salaita, who has served in administrative positions for several years now, posted this morning on Facebook, “People in upper admin with whom I’ve worked closely for years are now unwilling even to make eye contact with me. Inclusive Illinois.” That right there is the problem with making “civility” the boundary of conversation.  “Civility” only works if both parties are already operating from a position of equality and already in mutual agreement on the need for the conversation.  It doesn’t work if a powerful participant refuses to acknowledge that…the less powerful participant has an issue that needs to be discussed.  It also doesn’t work when only the powerful participant gets to define where the outer bounds of civility lie.  Civility commits us to a university where existing injustices remain entrenched and silenced voices stay that way.

Image of protesters carrying signs in the halls of University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign Union Hall. Signs say

Image from Mondoweiss.net

Steven Salaita And The Anger Of the Subjugated

Posted by melissaicd on September 5, 2014
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“There is a subtext to this whole business. The firestorm of reactions to Salaita…is indicative of a continuing determination to police and regulate the nature of the resistance offered by those who speak up on behalf of the traditionally subjugated.”

Salaita By the Numbers: 5 Cancelled Lectures, 3 Votes of No Confidence, 3849 Boycotters, and 1 NYT Article (Updated Thrice)

Posted by melissaicd on September 2, 2014
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The New York Times has weighed in with a strong piece on the Salaita affair. This is significant for two reasons. First, while we in academia and on social media or the blogosphere have been debating and pushing this story for weeks, it hasn’t really broken into the mainstream. With a few exceptions, no major newspaper has covered it.

Fear is the Mind Killer

Posted by melissaicd on August 25, 2014
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Image stating the Bene Gesserit litany from the science fiction book, Dune by Frank Herbert. It states: "I must not fear. Fear is the mindkiller. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

I have always been a nervous, anxious sort of person. When I was an undergrad, I helped myself and mitigated my inclination by reciting the Bene Gesserit litany from Frank Herbert’s Dune. It helped tremendously with exams and deadlines. The image above states the litany in its entirety. Here it is again:

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

Lately, I have much to be fearful and anxious about. I imagine things will be all right. Eventually. At this moment, I’ve also come to fear taking a stand, claiming an opinion, having feelings. Speaking is definitely risky. But, as the Bene Gesserit order wisely described, silence motivated by fear brings total obliteration. Speaking, choosing a side, having feelings. These are all costly. So is remaining silent. Choosing not to choose, while it can be defended, also exacts a price. And allows others to choose sides on our behalf. The Bene Gesserit litany reminds us to face our fears. Great sentiments, but still, they are easier said than done. Ultimately, the choice comes down to this: of all the consequences before me, which ones can I live with? And which ones will annihilate the best parts of me? The answers to these questions are often the ones that lead me to what I do. Friends and family who know me best understand and witness first-hand the agony I go through.

In the spirit of courageous action despite fearfulness, I have some questions about the Salaita affair that I’ve been thinking about these last few days. From my vantage point as a distance education graduate student, and one who very much cares about equity and inclusion, I am wondering about the politics that must be going on at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign’s upper administration. The identity of Chancellor Wise as an Asian American woman in a position of great power at an R1 academic institution in the United States has not slipped my notice. In fact, it has given me pause when expressing my dismay and any criticism of the damaging decision to un-hire Dr. Salaita. Is there a particular reason why Chancellor Wise is carrying the burden of this unpopular decision? Why isn’t UIUC President Dr. Bob Easter, who is a step higher in the UIUC organization chart, the bearer of this news? Is this a simple matter of the decision and burden belonging solely to the Chancellor’s Office? Even so, does the UIUC President’s Office have a say? Or is something else going on? If the Office of the UIUC President does hold an official opinion, what could that be? Is it something we could expect to be revealed soon?

In thinking through how one could use a critical race theory lens on these events at UIUC, the identity politics of the actors involved are crucial for greater understanding and illumination. And it seems that there are more actors at play in the Salaita affair than we first realize.

I do think that the events surrounding Salaita and UIUC’s upper administration are inciting fear and anxiety among academics, students, and higher education staff. Those feelings are making many of us do things that are not in keeping with our better selves. I do hope we find a way beyond the fear and silence. No matter what you may think of the politics surrounding the events at UIUC, I urge you, dear friends, to be brave. Find and use your voice. Remember: Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.